Thursday, 25 November 2010

Acknowledging what I'm doing

I've been thinking a lot about my blog lately. I'm sure you could have guessed just by looking around this place. I've added some pages up top about me and my family, I've changed the colour scheme around a bit, learned how to play around on Picasa to make a banner (if you want to know how, let me know) and I'm even trying to increase traffic.

It's not that I want to make money or talk you into believing something. I just really like writing and I want to share that with you. I feel like I have something to say. You know?

I've tried to write from my heart, to be honest, to balance the happy with the sad. And the more I write here, the more I feel that it's the right thing to do. That probably sounds weird I know.

I go between wanting to share enormous amounts of my life, my life as a mother, my life as a brown woman, my life as a wife, a sort of older mom, an aspiring writer, to feeling embarrassed after I hit the publish button. In those moments of self-doubt I wonder what's wrong with me that I want to tell the internet about what's going on in my life, in my head.

But then I remember that this is a new day. Facebook has made it possible for me to reconnect with friends I had in grade seven in Tucson Arizona. One day recently my friend Frank just "found" me through Google. After 25 years!
Because of Facebook I can find out what a lot of high school friends are doing at any given hour of the day.

The truth is, I love this blog and even though I'm not an expert or even a known writer, I want to keep trying. I want you to read my posts and tell me what you think. I want to know if you are experiencing the same thing.

I want the dialogue.

Most of the people on my blog list are people who follow my blog too. But I have a few listed that I love and even though I know they will probably never follow me, I want to promote them anyway. I read this post from Her Bad Mother recently and it made me wish I had written it. It was one of those times when I wanted to call the author and say - that's exactly what I feel, it's exactly what I needed to read. If you have time, check it out.

Thanks!

9 comments:

  1. I am just glad to get to hear from you more often these days. I love reading your thoughts. Hearing this makes me happy. And I'm so glad I found your blog two years ago. It's been so wonderful to have another mom out there experiencing some of the same challenges I am.

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  2. I feel kind of special now, being mentioned in your blog. ;-) I really enjoy reading your blog. It helps on the catching up we are doing over the last 25 years that we lost contact. I'm glad I "found" you, and helped you to find the other lost friends that you had in Tucson. Facebook is Great, I have found friends that I haven't seen or talk to in many years. I even have people on my friendslist that I haven't seen or talked to since elementary school. And yes everyone on my list is someone I know or have known over the years. ;-)

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  3. We're so alike! My goal with my blog was always about communication and dialogue. Before the blog, I felt alone in my thoughts so often. The blog has become a wonderful outlet for me creatively and personally. What an amazing benefit to my surprise when I found wonderful friends like you out here in bloggyland. I love authentically communicating and connecting with so many bloggers through this medium. I also love to have it as a quick sanctuary when things are hectic around here. The kids are beginning to see that I need these blogging mommy sanity breaks :)

    I love everything that you bring to us here through the blog. I feel like I "know" you in so many genuine ways. You know I really have to get to Canada one of these days to see you!!!

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  4. Hi there! It's been ages since I got over here for a visit. The kids look beautiful (as do you) and I like your new layout. (We moms have to stick together, right?) :) I am going to try really hard to be a better reader in the new year.

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  5. Very often, after complimenting me on my blog, certain family members will say: "You must really spend A LOT of time on it. Are you getting anything out of it?" They mean money, of course. And I do hope that will come some day, in some way. But what they don't understand are all the things blogging gives us that have nothing to do with money. Like new and wonderful friendships--both online and in real life (something I never expected but truly cherish). A project that is 100% our own, over which we have complete control and no one else can tell us what to do or say. A way to publish our writing, have people read it, and not have to depend on the whims of a tiny group of editors. And a creative outlet that is satisfying, rewarding and so much better than vegetating in front of the TV.

    I've also found that the posts I hesitate the most about publishing are the ones that resonate the most with readers--so taking a risk is worth it.

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  6. You know Kim, as i continued to read this post, i am taken aback with your honesty. When i began with my blog, i wanted people to acknowledge me and my writing. Now i do have a decent readership and yet i crave for more people to read me. I agree with your belief about the social networking. I am glad to know a person like you and bit more through every new post. Have a great weekend.

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  7. I think everyone just wants to be heard. Otherwise, why bother posting anything right?

    The important thing is to enjoy what you are doing and to never feel like it is work. When the blog is work, it's time to step back.

    Visiting from Red Dress Club

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  8. See now, Style Maniac said exactly what I would say, and her comment is exactly how I feel. I started wanting people to notice me, and now I do it just for the love of it, for the friendships, and because it gets me writing.

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  9. You touched on the main reason why I love blogging. It's a great outlet, and also a great way to communicate with all sorts of people we never could have met otherwise.

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