I've been thinking a lot about my blog lately. I'm sure you could have guessed just by looking around this place. I've added some pages up top about me and my family, I've changed the colour scheme around a bit, learned how to play around on Picasa to make a banner (if you want to know how, let me know) and I'm even trying to increase traffic.
It's not that I want to make money or talk you into believing something. I just really like writing and I want to share that with you. I feel like I have something to say. You know?
I've tried to write from my heart, to be honest, to balance the happy with the sad. And the more I write here, the more I feel that it's the right thing to do. That probably sounds weird I know.
I go between wanting to share enormous amounts of my life, my life as a mother, my life as a brown woman, my life as a wife, a sort of older mom, an aspiring writer, to feeling embarrassed after I hit the publish button. In those moments of self-doubt I wonder what's wrong with me that I want to tell the internet about what's going on in my life, in my head.
But then I remember that this is a new day. Facebook has made it possible for me to reconnect with friends I had in grade seven in Tucson Arizona. One day recently my friend Frank just "found" me through Google. After 25 years!
Because of Facebook I can find out what a lot of high school friends are doing at any given hour of the day.
The truth is, I love this blog and even though I'm not an expert or even a known writer, I want to keep trying. I want you to read my posts and tell me what you think. I want to know if you are experiencing the same thing.
I want the dialogue.
Most of the people on my blog list are people who follow my blog too. But I have a few listed that I love and even though I know they will probably never follow me, I want to promote them anyway. I read this post from Her Bad Mother recently and it made me wish I had written it. It was one of those times when I wanted to call the author and say - that's exactly what I feel, it's exactly what I needed to read. If you have time, check it out.