How do I love thee?

I don't always know how to be happy. I nitpick. I get huffy about unimportant crap. I let being right carry me off on self-righteous tangents. I micromanage my husband.

I write here about the majesty of my children, the splendour of being their mother, the exuberance with which I've embraced parenthood. But I hardly ever write about Shaune.

He's always in the background. I include him when the story calls for it. I add him like seasoning if it will enhance the narrative, but I rarely focus on him.

I don't know why I don't write about him more often. Well he would probably find it phoney. In real life he's sort of used to me being not all that showey toward him.

I rarely grab him in an embrace, profess my love for him. I hardly ever tell him that I'm glad he's my husband. I don't know if I could aptly let him know just how much it means to wake up from a nap and smell a magnificient meal cooking on the stove. That it feels like home when he's home even though we're not perfect together.

I wish I could admit that I am (sometimes) wrong more often.

I like that he doesn't demand things of me, things like my adoration, my gratitude, my undying show of affection. I know that relationship specialists might look at my attitude and tell me to smarten up, pull up my socks.

And I'm not saying that we're a match made in heaven, that my lack of giving all those things that are supposed to make a marriage work is working. I certainly know I could do better.

I was thinking about this today and realizing that I could use some work when it comes to him. 

 This is the cake Shaune made for Deaglan's birthday. Deaglan went crazy when he saw it.

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